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06 May 2010 @ 01:22 pm
Waiting For You Epilogue  
Title: Waiting for You
Author: hidaka_yuushi
Length: Chaptered
Genre: Angst
Rating: PG-13

I thought my love was enough… to love you, to defend you, to wait for you…But now I realized that it isn’t anymore… and it’s not enough for me to even love me… that’s why I’ve found myself someone who can love me enough… and he is.

Please, forget me and forgive me

If forgetting and forgiving are always that easy to do


Not even a second his gaze wavered away from the sight of the love of his life walking through the aisle…


Not even a second he let him away from his gaze… and if it was up to him, it would never be…  Not after an eternity without feeling his presence by his side, listening his laughter by his ear, enjoying his warmth beside his body.


And he could barely contain his tears when Junsu finally took his place beside him and smiled the smile he had been missing so much…


“Finally… “ he whispered, trying not to choke on his words. “After 18 years of waiting…” Ignoring the frown marring the pastor’s face, he raised his hand to touch Junsu’s cheek, to caress it tenderly. “You are finally standing here beside me...”


Junsu smiled wavered slightly as he fought the tears which were insisting to trail down his own cheek and grasped Yoochun’s hand with equally gentleness. “No more waiting, Chunnie-yah… I’m here and I’m finally yours…”




“Forever… well, although our forever might be shorter than the normal,” He still somehow could crack a joke despite in the brink of tears. “I’m not young anymore… and neither are you,” His watery grin widened.


Yoochun leaned his head forward and touched Junsu’s forehead with his. “It’s okay,” He whispered. “We’re going to live until hundred anyway… and that means I will still have at least 55 years with you… and the rest of eternity…”


‘After nearly losing him for the second time…’




“shit shit shit… Park Yoochun… Now you’ve finally done it! He’s going to hate you and disappear from you again… forever this time!” Yoochun cursed himself for being such a fool and followed an 18 years old suggestion to finally ask Junsu to take their relationship further.


Well, it showed him that kids would always be kids… And now… he would lose Junsu forever…


And not even the phone call from Jung Junior could calm his down. Not after seeing the horrified expression on Junsu’s face when he confessed to him. He really had ruined everything this time.


He didn’t know how to handle such feeling for the second time. If the first time it sent him being crazily delusional and burying himself into his work, the second time might really send him into the mental health institution…


A knock on the door.


He was really not in the mood of meeting anyone. Much less some teenager brats who acted like they knew how to handle his love life.


Well, great they’ve turned his non-existent one into a disaster instead.


So he yelled. “Fuck off! I’m not seeing anyone!”


But the pounding didn’t stop… not even 5 minutes later.


He cursed Junsu for passing the stubborn genes into his offsprings. Hell, most probably Jung Yunho also contributed the stubbornness, making those spawns as hard headed as this.


He didn’t have any choice but to throw them away physically then.


“Shit, I’ve told you...


Junsu was on his door, looking as beautiful and perfect as always…


“Can I come in?”


Dumbfounded, Yoochun shifted his body to make a way for Junsu to enter his condominium.


Silence filled the room. Yoochun simply couldn’t rack his brain to find anything to say while the slightly younger man seemed to be content to play with the hems of his shirt.


“Y, Yoochun-ah…” after several minutes of tense quietness, Junsu somehow found his guts to open his mouth.


“I’m sorry… I really am Junsu… I f you want you can forget everything that I said before… We can just be friends.. or acquaintancse if you hate me that much. But pleasepleasedon’t leavemeaga…”


“Yoochun, I want to… I mean I agree… I… I don’t mind that we’re taking our… rela…relationship more… seriously?”


That shut Yoochun up. And he froze… replaying the sentence a few more times in his head. And again and again and…


He ran to Junsu and practically grabbed his shoulders and shook him in disbelief… eyes begging Junsu to please don’t wake him if this was a mere dream… to please don’t ruin his imagination…


“Yoochun-ah… I’m serious… I want to be your…”

Junsu didn’t know what would he be if they took their relationship into a more serious step… Boyfriends? They were both 42 years old! Boyfriends only made what they had sound so trivial.


But Yoochun didn’t care. As long as he got Junsu now… and he would never let him go. Never, ever.


And he said it too.


“You are mine now, okay? You can’t back out… you can never take it back, understand? I’m not going to let you go again, not anymore… do you hear that? Never…”


Junsu just kissed him to stop the rambling.


And to show that he wouldn’t mind to be Yoochun’s forever this time.


End of flashback


Before Junsu could reply with an equally mushy statement, the old pastor coughed slightly to remind them where they were, and started the ceremony.


“… Park Yoochun, please say your vow…”


And that was the moment Yoochun had been waiting for in his 45 years of his life. Taking Junsu’s hand in his own, he gazed straight to the pair of eyes that belonged to the person he had loved, loves and will love the most in the whole world and his hand slowly pulled out a crinkled letter from his white wedding suit pocket.


With shaking fingers, he opened the paper and after a quick glance to it, his eyes returned back to the pair of almond eyes that was always haunting his days and night since the first time they met.


There was no need for the letter. He had it all inside his head… in fact his heart had been bursting to just announced it to the whole world…


Dear Junsu,


A quiver in his voice but he knew that he couldn’t stop. It was a long overdue reply for the piece of paper that had changed his, their lifes forever…


“I'm writing this to let you know… that I will never let you go. Not anymore. We’ve been through so much. You’ve praised me, defended me, carried me, inhabited me and adored me. You’ve fought to keep me free. You’ve lied to keep me pretty. You defended my choices. And when I betrayed you, you looked away. You once thought that your love was not enough… to love me and to even love you anymore. But here and now, I promise you that my love will always be enough… to love you and to love both of us. I’ve been a fool to let you go once… And now here I stand, 18 years older, vowing that I will never take you for granted again… will never let you go again… It is a waiting of an eternity…”


He stepped forward and knelt down, still grasping Junsu’s fingers tightly and entwined them with his own.


“So, Kim Junsu, will you agree to be my lawfully wedded husband?”


And 18 years later, Park Yoochun finally able to hear the two words he had dreamed so much before.


From Junsu, with tears in his eyes and the smile on his lips…


I do



A/N again sorry for the rushed ending^^ I'll really try to make it up to you maybe through some sequel and if I really really have no other ideas for this fic, I promise to make the next one more detailed and thorough^^... so yeah, posting this today since my flight is in several more hours and I won't be able to write during my trip since my dad will be hovering around... and yeah, I couldn't possibly write slash fic when he's around. hahaha. he'll chop me for sure!

anyway, hope that you enjoy this! the pdf file will be after I'm back from my trip I guess^^. Thanks for all of my loyal readers who never fail to comment on this story although it is quite short and fast paced with loads of fast forward^^. This story, of course, is dedicated to my baby, purpleinpink  for her wonderful plunny. Hope that I did justice to your plunny bb! (although maybe it didn't turn like what you expected hehehe)

so, so, so, see you on the next story... which will be hopefully soon? hehehe

Current Location: Jakarta
Current Mood: excitedexcited
xiao: Yoosu::smilesanimeleo on May 6th, 2010 05:47 am (UTC)
WAHHH I compleeetely did not expect the epilogue so sooon!!

But omg Chun's vows were perfect!! I love how it wrapped around to the beginning letter. <3

Heheh yesss Yoosu forever even in death!!! xDDD *crushes guilty feeling towards Yunho*

Also, yay Junsu for shutting Yoochun up with a kiss!

I liked this fic. ^^ As I've said before, I like fics of old lovers getting back together. I also like Chun's steadfast love towards Su. Sequels would be great love!! :D

P.S. typo spotted?
"you can’t never take it back"
hidaka_yuushihidaka_yuushi on May 6th, 2010 07:20 am (UTC)
hahah forgive me? I also feel that this story is a tad too rushed... but since my time in writing this is super limited, I had no choice but to cut it short since I don't want to leave it hanging. hahaha n I fixed the typo already bb! thanks so much!!

(and thanks for liking the vow^^ that was my fav part too!)
xiapwababoboy on May 6th, 2010 05:55 am (UTC)
no the end!?!?!!?!?!?
no yoosu-making-babies ):
happy ending is happy so I'm happy lol
hidaka_yuushihidaka_yuushi on May 6th, 2010 04:35 pm (UTC)
hahaha I guess Junsu is a bit too old to have babies already... but maybe I can arrange something? depend on my muse though^^ thanks for reading bb!
mirumojemimirumojemi on May 6th, 2010 06:13 am (UTC)
After years of waiting finally
Yoosu is together <3333
the vow is just beautiful^_^
hidaka_yuushihidaka_yuushi on May 6th, 2010 04:33 pm (UTC)
thank you!!! and yes^^ that's why the title is 'Waiting For You'.. Thankfully Chunnie never gives up waiting for Junsu ne?
ekin_hardyekin_hardy on May 6th, 2010 06:25 am (UTC)
Yes Yes Yes

Happy ending!!!!!! That is all I need now~!
hidaka_yuushihidaka_yuushi on May 6th, 2010 04:32 pm (UTC)
mwahahaha... glad you like it unnie!!!!
Ann: yoosu <3purpleinpink on May 6th, 2010 06:57 am (UTC)
/pokes pokes

are you still here or have you boarded your flight? coz i really wanna scream:
THIS IS PERFECT!! if i could i woul hug and shake you so tight to let you know how i love love looooove this epilogue. of course, i didnt expect it this fast but it was perfect. like how junsu comes back to chun's apartment..and then yoochun's vow. omg you completely turn something angsty into something..bittersweet? :')
guhhh. i love this. cant think of anything else to say. i had tears in my eyes lol.

thanks for adopting my lonely plunny bb XD
enjoy your trip! ^_^
hidaka_yuushihidaka_yuushi on May 6th, 2010 07:11 am (UTC)
I'm still here bb! hahha... I'm so glad that you like this story. as I told you before, I spent soo much time finishing this story in the beginning since I had too many plots to choose from. But well, I decided since this is something that I never try before (you know, about old Yoosu and re-marriage and stuff) and I should really try something new^^

And my fav part is also Yoochun's vow. it was something spontaneous, and I'm glad you love it!
(no subject) - purpleinpink on May 6th, 2010 07:20 am (UTC) (Expand)
(no subject) - hidaka_yuushi on May 6th, 2010 04:30 pm (UTC) (Expand)
momokostill_doll_15 on May 6th, 2010 07:18 am (UTC)
wow. the epilogue already? didn't expect that... but it's okay because it's a happy ending! yayyy~!!!

YooSu together. :D
though, I'm just wondering, can they still make babies now? lol. xD

I'll be waiting if ever you post a sequel or whatnot! <3
the vow was beautiful btw. :)

Thanks for writing this~! :D
hidaka_yuushihidaka_yuushi on May 6th, 2010 04:26 pm (UTC)
it... will be dangerous for susu definitely... since he's not that young anymore. hahahaha... but he;s a guyso he's definitely stronger than a girl.. maybe he stil can? hehehe...

Thanks! the vow is also my fav part^^
yunho1205yunho1205 on May 6th, 2010 07:21 am (UTC)
*sniff, sniff* I'm so happy Yoosu had a happy ending! Can't wait for your next story!

Have a safe trip sweetie!! :)
hidaka_yuushihidaka_yuushi on May 6th, 2010 04:25 pm (UTC)
would be soon.. hopefully. Now I don't even have any idea of the next story yet. hehehe

Thanks bb!
ting5ting5 on May 6th, 2010 07:38 am (UTC)
Wow I didnt expect the end so fast but man what a wait ne Yoochun and finally Yoosu reunited ^^

Yoochun's vow is just so beautiful I love how you relate his to Su's farewell letter to Yoochun 18yrs ago :)

PS. typo bb: 'that you love was not enough...' --> '...your love...'
hidaka_yuushihidaka_yuushi on May 6th, 2010 04:23 pm (UTC)
fixed! hahaha sorry.. I gess I'm rushing too much that I didn't even reread the whole thing again as usual (yours is actually the 2nd typo. the previous one was pointed out by another reader. hahaha. i'm super careless! hahaha)

(and thanks! yoochun's vow is actually my fav part too^^)
(no subject) - ting5 on May 6th, 2010 11:58 pm (UTC) (Expand)
Reginatvfxq on May 6th, 2010 07:55 am (UTC)
I'm sad that it's the ed! :'( But I'm happy it all worked out~

YAYAYAY for the wonderful ending~~
hidaka_yuushihidaka_yuushi on May 6th, 2010 04:14 pm (UTC)
thanks bb! I just can't resist happy ending for our yoosu. you know that^^ hehehe... thanks for all the comments bb!
farrdrtrypanophobic on May 6th, 2010 08:07 am (UTC)
its the end already??? DDD8
but urgh. i really really like this fic.
i cant believe im tearing up when its a happy ending.
the letter. twas the letter that made meh cry.
fluffs just get me good. happy ending 8DDDD
hidaka_yuushihidaka_yuushi on May 6th, 2010 04:19 pm (UTC)
hahaha..I'm really sorry that it's very short!!!! hahaha... I promise that the next will one will be ong... well at least longer than this^^ hehehe...

Thanks so much for keep reading and comenting bb!
one_neeone_nee on May 6th, 2010 10:26 am (UTC)
i just thought yesterday, that i dont cry as much as i usually do when i read ur story... but alas.... i cried reading this chapter... oh, bb, why i always cry reading ur story ? but i'm so happy that after 18 years of waiting, park yoochun finally get his junsu back =)
and, bb, have a save flight n a very much fun trip, yaaaaaa... (*hugs*)
hidaka_yuushihidaka_yuushi on May 6th, 2010 04:12 pm (UTC)
hahaha coz I'm a sadist? hehehe... *pass you tissues*. thanks for always reading and commenting bb! I will enjoy my trip, no worries^^
aw.shinawshin on May 6th, 2010 11:39 am (UTC)
Yoochun will treasure junsu very much, he's waited for far too long. =D Thanks for writing this! Enjoy your trip!
hidaka_yuushihidaka_yuushi on May 6th, 2010 04:09 pm (UTC)
he better be. hahaha if not, not only Yunho's ghost will come after him, the other little 4 jungs will definitely jump him as well... and sang ho and his brother are as proficient in hapkidoas their father. mwahahaha..

no need to thank me bb! I totally enjoy writing this! thanks for always reading and comenting though!
YooSu not so secret shipper. L♥ve: sortatadpole_lurve on May 6th, 2010 11:59 am (UTC)
I don't know why Chun's vow got me so emotional. I feel like tearing up when I read it. After waiting for so long, Junsu and Yoochun are now YooSu. Not so much YooSu interaction, more on their thoughts and feelings. I love this tho. ♥♥♥
Ps: The ending was so sudden, and I don't expect it coming. But i guess this is how write. love,love. and Enjoy your holiday babe. and write moar~~
hidaka_yuushihidaka_yuushi on May 6th, 2010 04:05 pm (UTC)
hehehehe... sorry for the lack of yoosu interaction. I really should write a oneshot continuation o highlight about their awkward relationship until it leads to the marriage ne? but I don't know whether I still have my leftover muse T_T seems like exams have killed most of my brain cells... but I'l try. maybe during the trip I will suddenly have some ideas. hehehehe

thanks foralways reading and commenting bb! can't do this without you!
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hidaka_yuushihidaka_yuushi on May 6th, 2010 04:02 pm (UTC)
smiling... with traces of jealousy of course^^ hahaha but anything to make his beloved susu happy^^

Thanks for reading and commenting bb!
krovavaya_ten: Happykrovavaya_ten on May 6th, 2010 02:26 pm (UTC)
Oh, thank you for writing this dear <333
hidaka_yuushihidaka_yuushi on May 6th, 2010 04:01 pm (UTC)
most welcome bb! it was my pleasure!
tea_andteddiestea_andteddies on May 6th, 2010 03:50 pm (UTC)
so soon! aww manzz the ending of anything fantastic story! hope to see some more work too! haha :D
(but this time is very rushed, yeah!)
hidaka_yuushihidaka_yuushi on May 6th, 2010 03:57 pm (UTC)
hehehe so sorry for that!it's either this or a looooong wait until I can find the time to sit down and write properly again (which might be ard 1.5 months...) and I hate leaving the story hanging. hehehe. lemme make it up to you next time? hehehe
k_tohopopk_yunhopop on May 6th, 2010 05:47 pm (UTC)
yaaaa! merci chérie for the update
i wasn't expecting the end, so i feel a bit sad
and yes i want to read more about how they rebuild their relationship
damn YC! i can't 5 minutes for a guy and he waited 18 years! crazy LOL
that was a beautiful story, sad but peaceful at the same time.

you're travelling? where where?
hidaka_yuushihidaka_yuushi on May 15th, 2010 03:50 pm (UTC)
*waves* hahaha I;m already back actually^^ just reached like an hour ago^^ I went for a trip to egypt and turkey^^ such beautiful countries^^ hehehehe

18 years of waiting... can only be done by someone who is already very sure that the other person is his only and true love I guess^^ just like chunnie^^
hyun_thohyun_tho on May 6th, 2010 10:25 pm (UTC)
Whoa, epilogue already! Dx
Aww, Happy that Junsu is finally loved. :)
hidaka_yuushihidaka_yuushi on May 15th, 2010 04:06 pm (UTC)
Thanks bb^^!!! although I know that it is a bit (or a lot^^) too fast^^ glad that you still enjoy it though^^
micky_susumicky_susu on May 7th, 2010 03:59 am (UTC)
Wasn't expecting it to end so soon, but it was a nice ending^^
hidaka_yuushihidaka_yuushi on May 15th, 2010 04:10 pm (UTC)
thanks bb^^ I'm sorry that it's so rushed T_T... will make it up somehow^^
musik_lovemusik_love on May 7th, 2010 03:59 am (UTC)
aaaaaw over so soon!?!?!! nooo i want more yoosu!!! but they are together now

hahaha they r both so cute, even in their 40's
(O.o that's old XD)

thanks 4 writing it!!!! <3333
hidaka_yuushihidaka_yuushi on May 15th, 2010 04:14 pm (UTC)
ahahaha... but I bet even 40 years old yoosu will still be sizzling hot. don't you think so?> hehehe.. thanks for reading and commenting bb!
zoeybunnygalszoeybunnygals on May 7th, 2010 04:08 am (UTC)
i was surprise to see that this is the last chapter, but nevertheless it was still great bb....

i'm glad that junsu had decided to accept yoochun
hidaka_yuushihidaka_yuushi on May 15th, 2010 04:16 pm (UTC)
thanks so much bb^^ hahaha... yoochun finally got what he deserved ne? after a super long waiting^^
keshbluedolphkeshbluedolph on July 19th, 2010 06:44 am (UTC)
7 years of holding ur faith is no short time of waiting.. overmore if it had to times 2!!

poor chun,, have to waiting 15 years (or 18 years??) for su..
but it's worth to wait coz it's su we're talking about and glad u make a happy end for yoosu
(still.. poor yunho!!)

same as before.. i always like the way u write it. the character, the feel..
and i'm fine with the flashbackes u made.

hmm.. how i wish i have a great son like jung sang ho

i'm waiting for ur other yoosu (m-preg yoosu if i may ask...) m(____)m
5_dreamchaser5_dreamchaser on February 15th, 2012 06:09 pm (UTC)
I love how different this story is from the others...and actually, I was expecting Yoosu baby/babies even though they're already in the 40's...(there's nothing wrong to wish for something,right? :D)
Anyway, glad that everything went well, and wow, Junsu actually had 4 kids with Yunho, I think that's the first :P
thanks for writing this!^^
valerie_13_lovevalerie_13_love on June 23rd, 2012 02:09 pm (UTC)
Ive just read your whole story and all I could say now is WOW!!! Amazing:D

well, to be honest, I am not so much into Yoosu's relationship like the one in your fic, but here, I think this is just the best! ( well, I hope that u understand what I mean, because I really really dont know any other way of making my point:/, awkward, eh?)

Anyway, your fic is just beautifully written, sweet and meaningful too:D

And will your make any sequel after this?? well, I'm really excited for Yoosu's babies ( in plural:D)

Looking forward to your updates:D

winter_subakiwinter_subaki on June 24th, 2012 06:38 am (UTC)
oh, i'm very sorry...i being to immersed in this story and i forgot to comment..i'm very sorry, i really love all your story, the feeling, the emotions..gah, i wish i write like u, i can still feel it in my heart.and my tears T_T